One of the hardest parts of my coming to faith in Yeshua is what it has done to our relationship. It feels like a huge barrier between us sometimes. I hope you know I love you dearly and miss so much the way things used to be. I want us to get there again. It kills me that you think I have joined some “hate” group because I don’t think homosexuality is how God made us to be. But I hope you know too, that I also don’t think pre-marital sex is right either, and you know as well, that was something I was pretty involved in, so I am not pointing fingers at anybody.
You say I can’t love you when I don’t approve of who you are. Well, you don’t approve of me either, and my faith is just as much a part of who I am. And this is what makes it so hard for us, because the things we feel most dear and central to our lives, feel like they are in conflict. But you should know that I have always loved you apart from anything you ever said or did, and that is still the case. It is called unconditional love, and I am your brother, and that’s what you get, whether you like it or not. And no matter if you try to push me away, I will always be there for you, no matter what.
I was both surprised and glad for our conversation the other night. I understand now why you thought it, but I was a bit shocked by your assumption that I thought you were a bad person and that I was now a good person because of my faith. As I said then, the difference between us is not that I am a good person and you are not. Absolutely not. We are equally bad, (maybe me a bit worse ?). The difference is I have asked God for forgiveness and you haven’t, that I want to follow God (which I don’t do very well) and you don’t.
That is what Yeshua wants. He is not looking to control us, he wants to love us, and for us to love him, for us to trust that he knows what is best for us. And while I will love you always no matter what, I would be lying if I didn’t say my heartfelt desire is for you to call out to him and to follow him too. I want you to experience what I have. It really does seem too good to be true, that God is real, that He loves us. But for now, all I want is for us to be brother and sister. I want you in my life. You are very literally irreplaceable in my life. We have shared our lives together since we were tiny children, and there is a way that you know and understand me that not even my wife will ever understand. Our lives are knit together. Let’s not let our differences come between that. Can we make this work? I sure hope so. You are truly precious to me.