Dear David, Moishe, and all of my other friends serving with Jews For Jesus,
I just wanted to take a moment to share with you and express my gratitude for all that I learned over the twelve years of serving with the ministry. The person whom God has brought me up to be is in a large way a reflection of my years in full time mission to the Jewish people.
First, on a practical level, the Lord used those years to clarify the gifts and talents that He has so graciously given to me. If someone had told me 20 years ago that I have a natural ability to speak in public and teach comfortably, I would have looked at them and thought they were crazy. My years of doing deputation, the opportunity to speak at Ingatherings, and to lead weekly Bible studies taught me that this is one of the gifts the Lord has graciously given to me.
I appreciate never being denied any leadership positions or greater responsibility just because of my gender. Many times the stretch beyond my comfort zone helped me to discover that I could achieve more than I ever imagined. I also learned to live with a level of integrity that still serves me to this day. Since the work involved much time without direct supervision, I learned how to choose to always do the right thing.
On a more spiritual level though, I learned two very important truths that I would also like to share with you. The first one is about experiencing the sovereignty of God in every situation. Although there were many difficult times in ministry I know that nothing ever happens apart from God who, for some reason, allows it to happen. To this day, there are still things that I don’t know why God allowed to happen the way they did. Yet, I know in my heart beyond a shadow of a doubt” that He worked all things together for my good because I do love Him and trust Him. He never failed to reveal His “fingerprints” on all situations especially as I looked back and gained 20/20 vision in hindsight.
The other major spiritual lesson that I’ve learned from being in ministry is that only Jesus is perfect. I will never forget the day when a friend of mine in Florida began a new position at a very reputable ministry. This friend called me after one of her first days of work. She felt absolutely shattered that the people she worked with were, in some ways, no better than the people that she had worked with in the secular world. I couldn’t help chuckling with her and help her to see that we are all sinners saved only by the grace of God. Boy, the Lord really used me that day to give her a reality check! Just because we serve in a Christian workplace doesn’t mean that there won’t be any more interpersonal problems.
In spite of the difficult times over my years in the ministry, I see that God has His way of using them to grow me up to become more like Him. He taught me how to forgive my brother “seventy times seven times.” He taught me how to “put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience; bearing with one another, and forgiving each other… just as He forgave me.” My best memories and stories to tell are from being in the ministry. I minister to others out of my experiences.
So, even though I felt the need to put down some long-term roots and to stop being quite so mobile, my time of service with the ministry of Jews for Jesus has had an indelible stamp upon the person who I am today. I look forward to helping with summer camps whenever time allows and possibly even the West Coast Ingathering children’s program.
Most sincerely in Yeshua,
Served with Jews for Jesus from June 1989-October 2001